I'm not quite sure why, but it is always in the bathroom that I feel especially near to God. Weird, I know...but true! That time in the morning is God and I time. He speaks so clearly to me....I find myself still in His presence there...no distractions. Some of my greatest life lessons are those mornings in the bathroom!
Thursday morning I had a great morning...great time in the Word, had victory over my lazy flesh that wanted to sleep in...it was awesome! I was in the groove! So, I turned on my music full blast...and I decided to open my door....let the roommates enjoy the music too! Well, my one roommate who is engaged was standing there hugging her fiancee' (who had stopped by to put oil in her car, how sweet...). K, so instantly, my "air was let out of my balloon". I hate it that I have these stupid girlee emotions at times. My heart instantly got sad. My happiness diminished...my thoughts turned from my Jesus to my loneliness...that quickly. I know, pathetic, but this is what happened!
I went back in my room and shut my door...my heart was heavy...my thoughts were..."this sucks, I'm never gonna have someone to hug/hold me...blah, blah, blah!" It was then that I caught the words of the song that was BLARING through my speakers....
sweetest words I had heard all morning....
"I WILL HOLD YOU CAUSE YOU BELONG TO ME, YOU'RE NEVER ALONE 'CAUSE I'LL BE WITH YOU FOR ALL ETERNITY, YOU'RE NEVER ALONE!"
Wow, did I really just hear that? It was like God Himself was singing to me, in my room, kinda like I had my own private concert! The loneliness and sadness turned once again to joy and satisfaction.
I heard it said to me this week that "Whatever you look at is what you will reflect." If you're looking at Jesus, you'll reflect Him! It was as if Christ Himself reached down and put the mirror of myself down and put His hands on my chin and tilted my head back up to look into His precious face. He was saying to me, quit looking at others, quit looking at yourself....LOOK AT ME! I'm here, and I am the One that can fill this void...if you just let me!
I did....it was awesome!
So then, this morning...I was reading a book about Loneliness and one of the sentences stuck out to me that said... Loneliness is the malnutrition of the soul that comes from living on substitutes. WOW! Totally explains those periods of loneliness in my life. I'm tired of "living on substitutes"...I know Who the Real Deal is...I know where to find my complete satisfaction...and I choose the Real over the substitute. Another Awesome lesson!
Here's the rest of the words of that song...that is still ministering to my heart!
Never Alone
by
Mercy Me
It's been one of those days
When everything just feels so far away
Hope don't be a stranger
Won't you help me make it through today?
Then a voice comes calling out to me
You're never alone cause I am with you
And I will always be
I will hold you cause you belong to me
You're never alone cause I'll be with you
For all eternity
Someone tell me how I
Stumble into doubting all the time
Some days I'm all together
And other days I stand here asking why
Then a voice comes calling out to me
You're never alone cause I am with you
And I will always be
I will hold you cause you belong to me
You're never alone cause I'll be with you
For all eternity
Then a voice comes calling out to me
You're never alone cause I am with you
And I will always be
I will hold you cause you belong to me
You're never alone cause I'll be with you
For all eternity
